
Some might fear persecution being gay in the country that has the largest Muslim population in the world. But in Indonesia a huge gay film festival is held every year. What does is really mean to be gay in Indonesia?
John Badalu has  been organizing the Q! Film Festival for the past 10 years. It is the  biggest gay film festival in Asia and the only one of its kind in a  country with a majority of Muslim inhabitants. The 38-year-old says it  is possible to live a pretty free life as a homosexual in Indonesia's  big cities but the challenges are increasing.
Last  year, the Q! Film Festival was attacked by...
the radical Islamic Defenders Front (FPI), which accused Badalu and his team of showing pornographic films. They threatened to burn down the venues if the festival was not stopped.
the radical Islamic Defenders Front (FPI), which accused Badalu and his team of showing pornographic films. They threatened to burn down the venues if the festival was not stopped.
Convinced that his  organization was on firm ground, Badalu and his team refused and the  festival was held in five big cities. A few months before, an  international gay conference that was supposed to be held in Surabaya  in East Java had been cancelled after coming under attack from the same  radical group.
Badalu is not overly  concerned. He says it is not just gay people that FPI is targeting, but  also other minorities such as members of the Islamic movement Ahmadiyya.  
"If anything  is against Islam in their interpretation, they will go against it, they  will go and bash them," explained Badalu further. However, according to  Badalu, there has never been gay bashing in Indonesia.
No special treatment from the government
He also adds that  Indonesia cannot be compared to other Muslim countries such as Iran  where people have been executed because of their sexual orientation. In  Indonesia, there is no law to do with homosexuality.
Many see this as an  advantage but Hartoyo from "Our Voice," an NGO that fights for the  rights of homosexuals and bisexuals in Indonesia, is of another opinion.  
"The government does  not give special protection to the Lesbian Gay Bisexual Transgender  community,"  he complained. He added that they needed special treatment  so they can finally access their civil rights, in the areas of politics,  economics, social and culture.
Hartoyo was himself  beaten up in public a few years ago when he was living with his partner  in Aceh. When he went to the police station, he was "treated like an  animal."
After waiting for more  than 18 months, four of his seven tormentors were given probation and a  10-cent fine. Hartoyo says he is still traumatized by the incident,  which he says is a clear example of the state not guaranteeing his  rights as a citizen.
Big pressure to get married
The  challenges are often from society. There are certain fields where gays  are openly accepted, especially television and advertising but there  have been cases of people being fired because of their sexual  orientation in other sectors. 
Many transsexuals do  not have ID cards because they are reluctant to go through the  bureaucratic procedures as they are often made fun of by civil servants.  This means that many do not have access to free health insurance. 
Dede Oetomo, the  co-founder of the first homosexual organization in Indonesia, says that  in the past 20 years societal pressure to marry generally has become  stronger, and especially for gay people. Many families think that their  children’s sexual orientation might change if they get married. 
"It's actually the  family that is the scariest to many gay men and lesbians in Indonesia,"  Oetomo says. "Telling your mum and dad ' I'm not getting married, I'm  not giving you children.'"
Because of this kind  of pressure, there are mainly two alternatives - either gays and  lesbians decide to get married just to please the family or they run  away from them. 
Strong feeling of shame
Laura Coppens, a film  producer from Berlin who is making a film about lesbian women in  Indonesia called the "Children of Srikandi," thinks most Indonesian  people are generally tolerant towards homosexuals but prefer not to talk  about it because of the strong culture of shame or malu in Indonesian. 
She says that one  woman in the film said that she was not accepted by her family anymore  because she was a lesbian and the family felt ashamed. 
The strong feeling of malu  is very important in the Indonesian society, says Coppens who is also  writing a thesis at the University of Zürich on lesbian women in  Indonesia. 
"It is funny though,  because if you don't talk about stuff in Indonesia, then it doesn't  bother anyone. There are cases of lesbian couples who live happily in  their neighborhood and nobody cares about them."
"It becomes a problem only if you talk about it," she says.
Oetomo agrees on this  point, mentioning the example of transsexuals who are popular as  entertainers, but not if they are your relatives. 
This is why many Indonesian transsexuals run away from home, without any educational background or skills, says Hartoyo.
Ironically, he adds,  the place that is supposed to be the safest sometimes turns out to be a  very dangerous one for transsexuals.
Like in many other  countries, life for homosexuals is not easy in Indonesia. Experts also  see the need for the Indonesian government to improve conditions by  fostering a culture of discussion or providing more sexual education.
But for film festival  organizer John Badalu, it is also the duty of each homosexual to fight  for his or her own freedom and to say - I have the same right to live as  any other citizen.
Author: Anggatira Gollmer
Editor: Ziphora Robina
